all alone. i want this. i wanted to be alone.

but now i feel nothing but scared… scared of being so alone.

i spend my days focusing on how to lose weight.

how to sit with the hunger, how to fight the urges, how to think about something else.

anything else that isnt

how to get sicker.

treatment is my only option.

fear.

utter fear.

lies lies lies

but the tests dont lie. the labs dont lie.

you

are going to die.